Wednesday........

Today... all I can say is that I'm here. Last night went well for training I think. Although there is that one person who tried to take off my baby's head... hmmm can anyone say "shank" lol. There are all sorts of people you meet in wrestling. Sometimes it's hard to see until to get deeper in it. Right now the Mr. is getting to knwo who's who and who they are tied to so as not to step on anyones toes or make any enemies.

SO why do people try to do their best to hurt you in the ring on top of it's training so you do everything in slow motion at first and not full steam. hmmmm, I wonder. SO we have to sit and watch and wait although really in the ring it doesn't matter if you don't get along, hell even if you hate the person. Persoanl difference aside you will respect each other and work together. I do however wonder if you choose not to work with someone how much work you will actually get? Probably not much.

So I will save my anger and just shank them in the parking lot LMAO. Ok so I won't but I will definitely bide my time until someone kicks their butt. Hell I will probably instigate it. REALLY.

Now on another note since I'm a little perturbed , I love Bj with all my heart. I love his Dad and Step Mom, his best friend and his Mrs. They are all wonderful. Now the mom - in - law is different. I am a little upset at myself because I got very upset yesterday and could not contain it. I am never one to hold my tongue nor punches. I am the kind of person that will not pretend to be anyone I am not. Now the in law has been here for a couple of days and has managed to really get under the skin. I am trying my best not to blow up although I fear I'm still managing to let it out on him. Of course it isn't ok either because I don't want to argue with him about stuff that isn't his fault. However I kind of feel like I'm expected to hold it in and not say anything so as not to anger anyone else.... HOW?

Not only because of how I am feeling about things that have gone on, but more so because I dislike anyone putting him down. AND I definitely don't like anyone saying it to the boys either. Basically she is putting him down not only by telling him but then trying to make them less in their eyes. Who does that? This is your child and your grandchildren, how could you want to make them think that he is less of a man or that he's not good enough. I really hope that it gets better only I don't see it happening. I really don't think I can hold my tongue forever, and when we have another one, will she try to tell them those things too? Not on my watch. We will fight.

I am so proud of Bj, I am behind him 100% in all that he is taking on. Hell, I love going to wrestling with him. It's awesome, and to see him in the ring. He still ebats himself up about everything Life in general as well, and I really do know why. How do you reverse a lifetime of people telling you that you are not good enough?

We do not talk to our kids that way, we do not discourage them, nor tell them that they are dumb. Having 4 kids is not easy by any means and we have made some mistakes sure, but we are now and will always be better parents than our parents were. Sorry for the rant I think I feel a little better now that I have eaten something. I wish people would be different though but change doesn't always come.

this week.....

Well it's Saturday and I haven't been on here in a minute... work has been real busy. So today i'm supposed to start cleaning the house as Bj's mom will be here on Monday. Yet I don't really feel up to it since I've been in a little pain. Maybe tomorrow will be better.

Tonight of course it's time to get TEXTREME!!!! XCW will be in Pilot Point again tonight, and we will be there front and center as always :) Looking at getting there a little early and hopefully tomorrow will be able to get everything done like we need to. Really don't want to give anyone a reason to complain but alas it will probably happen anyway.

well off to make dinner and get ready to go :)

Friggin yippee it's Monday ......

Well this weekend was a good one I have to admit. Got the boys on Friday although through drama yet again. Bobby, and the fam came over Friday night, yay for me making enchiladas, and tacos.... it was pretty cool. Although next time we will definitely have to get home earlier so that I can cook...

Saturday was great! Bobby had his debut match, and I can't wait to see Bj's first.... it will probably suck, but hey it will still be awesome! Last night we were searching for more moves for his aresenal. I like having other friends we can hang out with and they have a little girl who plays with ours. It's nice. They say that when you're parents your friends are other parents. They are easier to get along with. Bj and Bobby have a lot of things to talk about which makes it so much better, they wrestle together and all in all we have some pretty good times. I really do like them. Harleigh is the cutest little girl with the biggest blue eyes. Carrie and Bobby are funny as all get out and it's just cool.

Things are just going well at the moment. I do miss Angel but she will be home soon. She is turning 8 in like 15 days..... man times go sa fast. We have 3 8 yr olds and then little Envi who's going to be 3. I have to say I really am very happy at the moment. I have an awesome man, whom I love so very much, good friends, great kids ( even when Bj wants to strangle them lol ) Bj is able to pursue things in life that he has wanted to do for a long time. He's training to be the best cruiser weight in Texas. About to start filming for Insource and he's geeked about that. I love to see him like that it makes me happy too.

And even though it's always about Bj........ I think he likes to see me happy too...LOL

Tuesday is upon us....

Thank goodness tomorrow is Wednesday. Our smallest has been sick her asthma has been acting up real bad, now.... I have picked up a head cold. Totally awesome of course because it's hot as you know what here and not being able to breathe is not cool......

Alas friday will be here soon enough I hope :) Bj will be meeting with Billy this week to talk about some stuff, which is good. Tonight is training and Bj will get in the ring again with Backwoods Bobby!!! hee hee , I do love watching them and even though I don't feel so hot I think we will go anyway and watch him, well really depends on how the baby is when I get home.

Today went by fairly quickly as I only worked half a day :) and now.. it's time to go home to my man and my baby girl.....

Yes ... it's Monday.....

Well woke up late this morning after a long night with our youngest. Was up and down a few times last night, still wishing I could make it all go away.... When Bj woke me up this morning I had like 5 minutes before I had to jet out the door.

So he's being the awesome man he is and staying home with her. You know he really is so great about that.... I love knowing that when it happens he doesn't even hesitate to stay home with them.... he really is awesome!

Although aparently according to Bobby they are both awesome as they are wrestlers and in order for me to understand I would have to wrestle... LOL. I think Bobby, Carrie and Harleigh are cool. Harleigh of course being 2 1/2 and just like Naiya. At least when I meet and see other little kids and they do the same things that my little kids do, then I don't feel so bad. I know kids all have their quirks. I just love them :) I really do love kids. My own especially all 4 of them.

Well back to work I go as today is such a busy day. Joy oh joy :)

Yay.... it's Friday.......

Last night was fun. Watched Bj running drills.... it was pretty cool I must admit. I enjoy being there with him and even though he still beats himself up after every move he thinks he doesn't do right he's getting a little better at it. I think he's getting more confident as when they are running drills he's not thinking about how he looks he's thinking about what the next move is.... and how fun it is.... THIS is the point it is what he should be thinking and is awesome to see him.

Well tomorrow is XCW woo hoo, I love going , love the show, and my absolute favorite wrestler ( at least 'til Bj is out) is the current XCW Heavyweight Champion.... AWESOME! Hoping the heat has gone down by the time we get there.... really.... Texas is so dang humid :(

Looking forward to the weekend, hoping to get some kind of rest as we don't get much during the week. The boys will be here next weekend, we haven't seen them in over a month... miss them. I miss Angel too of course, can't wait 'til she comes home.

Well, before I leave for the weekend I have some final touches to add to the desk of a coworker as I am currently drawing a picture of him with one foot in the grave.... and hanging all his little homie figures from the cieling..... TGIF!!!

Today is definitely Wack friggin Wednesday

Ok so today I am actually feeling a little goofy... wait.. oh my bad I'm kinda always that way . As I sit here for some dang reason I can't get Steve Wonder's My Cherie Amor out of my head...WTF.

Anyway.... so last night Bj got to practice a set, which was cool for him. I have to admit I do like seeing him in the ring... Can't wait to have the kids see him, although I think that Little High Yellow Envi will probably be yelling stop it and telling people to leave him alone. LOL she loves her some Bj, even though he tries to claim she doesn't love on him... ( he's pretty full of it)...

Anyway I watched him look like he was getting pummeled last night. Of course Bobby is such a big guy I think the first time he hit him in the shoulder Bobby actually hit him, and he nearly flipped over.... OMG I was like OUCH..... I really love when he stops . for that split second. doesn't think about what he's doing, and just does it. It's awesome! It looks great! ..... but..... then when we tell him it looks good... there goes my baby, over analyzing... trying to figure out what he did so he can do it again.... and no matter how many times I tell him not to.. he does it anyway. He still gets hard on himself, and he doesn't have to be. Just get up and do it again, don't worry about what it looked like, just go for it. You know when he gets past his brain... it's going to be a beautiful thing....

My honey right now is already geeked about March...... YES , WrestleMania XXVI.... Phoenix here we come again.... guess taking the trip made him think we could just drive over there anytime..... LOL... We will definitely need to be getting a bigger car to take all the kiddos! Or there will be some fighting..lol.

Tonight... we rest... well maybe Bj will get some rest if I let him... :)

Trash talkin Tuesday.........

My nerves are on hinges today... I have no tolerance for ignorance or those who act like everyone else is dumber than they are.... Well ok so I have a little tolerance for it since Bj .... well Bj "knows" he's better than everyone. That's how he puts it...

There are rare occasions in this life where i'm not always right about certain things. at least where my emotions.. ie. fears, influence my thoughts or decisions. Like I said though they are rare.....

Now when it comes to my job... I am rather anal about what I do and how I do it. And I don't like being scrutinized by lesser people..... Especially when I know for a fact and can prove that I am right...

Enough about that I will just get farther into a boiling over mode... Tonight is training...
Wondering since Bobby is going to be a permanent fixture ( which is a good thing), how much selling, and how much OMG not breathing, Bj will do tonight... I so do love being there with him and watching because I absorb things too, and will use it later as we further his progress.

Today is almost over and I already wish I was with my family....... Off to work I go again.

Ah..... Monday.......

Well it's Monday yet again, and since we had a long weekend it is uber busy today. The wonderful thing is that my partner in crime is back from vacation...... woohoo means I at least get some kind of help on my side since, Bj's favorite person doesn't really do anything all day but sit and complain and ... oh yeah he can't really help me anyway... he's worthless. Besides the fact that no one can stand him, no one wants him to touch their records or make their reservations.....

Hmmmm.... wonder why maybe it's his lack of understanding completely simple english instructions... maybe if we tell him in spanish..lol...

So ... we actually caught up on rest this weekend.. yay... learned a little more about COH.... doesn't look like it would be as difficult to learn how to generally play but unlike the love of my life, I'm not a computer lingo type. I don't know everything and would probably sit there and bug him everytime someone typed something I didn't unerstand. Then again learning the emote codes and stuff that aren't on there and ... well it's a lot of info to learn but I really look forward to being able to sit and play with him :)

Well Bj says he already knows what is happening tonight on RAW so we will probably watch it after it records so he can jump through all the parts he doesn't care to see or hear lol....

Time to get back to the grindstone since I have a stack of papers I have to get to before 5.....

Can't wait to be home with my little fraggle and my man.... wonder who's cooking dinner tonight?????? Maybe Bj.... since tomorrow is my day and he has training.... thank goodness for those nice hot baths with all those sore muscles. Hopefully he will get to learn how to breathe when Bobby hits him with those massive forearms.....