Yay its friday

I'm so excited it is the weekend? Bj's dad will be here tomorrow and Angel will be home Sunday.WOOOTTTT! I miss my baby girl so very much!

Bj is hurting again although not quite as much as last time. His elbows still hurt as well as his shoulder. One day he will not hurt anymore. Hopefully that day comes soon but I am almost sure that as he learns new things he will still have new hurts. He's going back to running more now which will help he needs to blow himself up on a regular basis so that he will not be so winded.
XCW is back in Pilot Point Saturday night. Looking forward to having Bj's dad there with us.

well starting my weekend off now can't wait to relax although I probably won't get any sleep.

a new time

So I haven't been here since last week. A lot has been going on, we have had the boys which is awesome that we have gotten to spend so much time with them. I miss my oldest as she is still in Iowa.... today is her 8th birthday..... she is growing up so fast. Thank goodness she comes home next week. Bj's mom hs gone home and isn't in the most pleasant of moods but alas there are some things that happen in this life and some people who are never happy with any of it.

I love and support Bj in all his endeavors and try to be the best I can be with everyone, today he took a stand for himself and for us. Some things were said about little high yellow Envi and it was not the reaction that was anticipated I'm sure.

Tonight is training and I'm sure he will be tired and sore and ready to soak as he comes home. My hope is that i will have everything done for him. Dinner ready, kids bathed and in bed, and me with open arms ready to apply icy hot lol.

Well hopefully things will get better from here on out. Bj's Dad is coming into town this weekend which is awesome :) The boys haven't gotten to see him in some time and they are looking forward to it. Totally not the same experience with the mom as Dad is much cooler and much more supportive:) Plus I like him and he likes us :)

Well more tomorrow off to feed our kids :)

Wednesday........

Today... all I can say is that I'm here. Last night went well for training I think. Although there is that one person who tried to take off my baby's head... hmmm can anyone say "shank" lol. There are all sorts of people you meet in wrestling. Sometimes it's hard to see until to get deeper in it. Right now the Mr. is getting to knwo who's who and who they are tied to so as not to step on anyones toes or make any enemies.

SO why do people try to do their best to hurt you in the ring on top of it's training so you do everything in slow motion at first and not full steam. hmmmm, I wonder. SO we have to sit and watch and wait although really in the ring it doesn't matter if you don't get along, hell even if you hate the person. Persoanl difference aside you will respect each other and work together. I do however wonder if you choose not to work with someone how much work you will actually get? Probably not much.

So I will save my anger and just shank them in the parking lot LMAO. Ok so I won't but I will definitely bide my time until someone kicks their butt. Hell I will probably instigate it. REALLY.

Now on another note since I'm a little perturbed , I love Bj with all my heart. I love his Dad and Step Mom, his best friend and his Mrs. They are all wonderful. Now the mom - in - law is different. I am a little upset at myself because I got very upset yesterday and could not contain it. I am never one to hold my tongue nor punches. I am the kind of person that will not pretend to be anyone I am not. Now the in law has been here for a couple of days and has managed to really get under the skin. I am trying my best not to blow up although I fear I'm still managing to let it out on him. Of course it isn't ok either because I don't want to argue with him about stuff that isn't his fault. However I kind of feel like I'm expected to hold it in and not say anything so as not to anger anyone else.... HOW?

Not only because of how I am feeling about things that have gone on, but more so because I dislike anyone putting him down. AND I definitely don't like anyone saying it to the boys either. Basically she is putting him down not only by telling him but then trying to make them less in their eyes. Who does that? This is your child and your grandchildren, how could you want to make them think that he is less of a man or that he's not good enough. I really hope that it gets better only I don't see it happening. I really don't think I can hold my tongue forever, and when we have another one, will she try to tell them those things too? Not on my watch. We will fight.

I am so proud of Bj, I am behind him 100% in all that he is taking on. Hell, I love going to wrestling with him. It's awesome, and to see him in the ring. He still ebats himself up about everything Life in general as well, and I really do know why. How do you reverse a lifetime of people telling you that you are not good enough?

We do not talk to our kids that way, we do not discourage them, nor tell them that they are dumb. Having 4 kids is not easy by any means and we have made some mistakes sure, but we are now and will always be better parents than our parents were. Sorry for the rant I think I feel a little better now that I have eaten something. I wish people would be different though but change doesn't always come.

this week.....

Well it's Saturday and I haven't been on here in a minute... work has been real busy. So today i'm supposed to start cleaning the house as Bj's mom will be here on Monday. Yet I don't really feel up to it since I've been in a little pain. Maybe tomorrow will be better.

Tonight of course it's time to get TEXTREME!!!! XCW will be in Pilot Point again tonight, and we will be there front and center as always :) Looking at getting there a little early and hopefully tomorrow will be able to get everything done like we need to. Really don't want to give anyone a reason to complain but alas it will probably happen anyway.

well off to make dinner and get ready to go :)

Friggin yippee it's Monday ......

Well this weekend was a good one I have to admit. Got the boys on Friday although through drama yet again. Bobby, and the fam came over Friday night, yay for me making enchiladas, and tacos.... it was pretty cool. Although next time we will definitely have to get home earlier so that I can cook...

Saturday was great! Bobby had his debut match, and I can't wait to see Bj's first.... it will probably suck, but hey it will still be awesome! Last night we were searching for more moves for his aresenal. I like having other friends we can hang out with and they have a little girl who plays with ours. It's nice. They say that when you're parents your friends are other parents. They are easier to get along with. Bj and Bobby have a lot of things to talk about which makes it so much better, they wrestle together and all in all we have some pretty good times. I really do like them. Harleigh is the cutest little girl with the biggest blue eyes. Carrie and Bobby are funny as all get out and it's just cool.

Things are just going well at the moment. I do miss Angel but she will be home soon. She is turning 8 in like 15 days..... man times go sa fast. We have 3 8 yr olds and then little Envi who's going to be 3. I have to say I really am very happy at the moment. I have an awesome man, whom I love so very much, good friends, great kids ( even when Bj wants to strangle them lol ) Bj is able to pursue things in life that he has wanted to do for a long time. He's training to be the best cruiser weight in Texas. About to start filming for Insource and he's geeked about that. I love to see him like that it makes me happy too.

And even though it's always about Bj........ I think he likes to see me happy too...LOL

Tuesday is upon us....

Thank goodness tomorrow is Wednesday. Our smallest has been sick her asthma has been acting up real bad, now.... I have picked up a head cold. Totally awesome of course because it's hot as you know what here and not being able to breathe is not cool......

Alas friday will be here soon enough I hope :) Bj will be meeting with Billy this week to talk about some stuff, which is good. Tonight is training and Bj will get in the ring again with Backwoods Bobby!!! hee hee , I do love watching them and even though I don't feel so hot I think we will go anyway and watch him, well really depends on how the baby is when I get home.

Today went by fairly quickly as I only worked half a day :) and now.. it's time to go home to my man and my baby girl.....

Yes ... it's Monday.....

Well woke up late this morning after a long night with our youngest. Was up and down a few times last night, still wishing I could make it all go away.... When Bj woke me up this morning I had like 5 minutes before I had to jet out the door.

So he's being the awesome man he is and staying home with her. You know he really is so great about that.... I love knowing that when it happens he doesn't even hesitate to stay home with them.... he really is awesome!

Although aparently according to Bobby they are both awesome as they are wrestlers and in order for me to understand I would have to wrestle... LOL. I think Bobby, Carrie and Harleigh are cool. Harleigh of course being 2 1/2 and just like Naiya. At least when I meet and see other little kids and they do the same things that my little kids do, then I don't feel so bad. I know kids all have their quirks. I just love them :) I really do love kids. My own especially all 4 of them.

Well back to work I go as today is such a busy day. Joy oh joy :)